Pros and Cons of being Lordson

I shall attempt to evaluate the pros and cons of being..well, me.

That so, that you may learn that some things aren't as bad as you think.

I'm a average boy with no outstanding skills, everything about me is as normal as it gets, to put in a word-mediocre.

Born into an average income family, not having a full fledge family life as books would depict.

i shall start with the pros first!

Pros:

1. I'm average looking. So i wouldn't have to deal with the hassle of girls constantly bugging me, and i'm not good looking enough to attract gay guys. With my looks only a mother could love, when i do find a girlfriend, i'm sure she loves me beyond my physical appearance.
2. I'm neither poor no rich. Believe it or not, i find satisfaction in being cateogrized into a average income family group. I learned the value of money without having to starve or be in need of anything. Even i cannot buy all the things i want, but when i do buy them, the satisfaction that comes with it is much greater. I believe all my friends would agree with me.
3. I have eczema. It's a skin related sickness, call it a blessing or a curse, my condition isn't as bad as those depicted in picutres you find on google or wikipedia. It's mild in a sense that i still can do whatever i want. I say it's a good thing because it keeps reminding me that i need God when i going through tough times with my eczema, if i hadn't got it, i would take everything for granted. So thank you Lord Jesus, for in my weakness Your strength is made perfect.
4. I have a great circle of friends. Well, that is very subjective, but i'm glad my friends are true to the core, they aren't snobby or stuff, tehy are just... well, like me. It might sound absurd, but i find all my friends and i have things in common(some may point that we have friends because we have things in common), but i'm talking bout something else, something i can't quite put my finger to it. In a worldly sense, we are considered quite sad case, hence the birth of S.A.D., but we enjoy it. Not excluding my church friends, like flabby arms, TGCM,banana, Caine my bane(kidding!), actually Caine the saint, Ean the fiend,Susubear with flare, Ectasy,Alyssa with elmo-ish charisma, Shervil the rocking girl,Mick the music geek, Brian the defiant, Ian the little iron, Ben in the moving can, Matt the brat and others! Oh and to my good friend Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren Keren.
5. I eat enough. I mean, i can consume a little more than normal people do, it's a plus point!! I get to eat and be twice as satisfied!

Ok, enough with the pros, i don't like to think much of the pros, haha, humans tend to think more of the weakness, or rather i do. So ehre are the cons, it is a lonnnngg list, yeat, i'll just pick a few and spare you the trouble of reading this any longer than you should.

Cons:

1. I'm average looking. It is so hard to just walk up to a girl and say, "how ya doing?" and not get slap in the face and be spitted on, sighhh.... gotta put in double effort just to get a girl hehehe.
2. I have eczema. Yea, it's a good thing, yet not so good too. In the past, i was very self conscious,and because i have not consult a doctor, the eczema was killing me, i was losing gallons of blood everyday due to skin crack and stuff, my friends from high school would know what i'm talking about, i would isolate myself at home, not participating in activites, so my social life in high school was pretty much limited and unfulfilling, till i saw a doctor, so it isn't half bad now. New people would ask me if i have skin allergies, and look in disgust as if i could infect them with it, i learn to ignore those looks, but nevertheless you'd still feel a bit sad.
3. I lack social skills. My friends would beg to differ, but i totally sucked at doing it, i could initiate a conversation in a big group, but never have any participation or i would never end it, most of the time i would starta topic and listen to others. On a one to one social meetings, i would die trying to talk to the other person, sigh, and when i do talk properly, somehow somwhere i'll insert and insult and offend another. Must work on it!
4. Procrastinator......
5. I'm not athletic. I wish i am,i really like sports, i'm just not good in them,no matter how much i practice, i could never play properly. Always i'm there to make other people look good and they get all the recognition, no wonder i'm fat.
6. I'm not always on fire for God, as much as i want to, my flesh still wins over me, i'm trying, but i'm doing it wrong, especially after the major event a couple months ago, my spiritual level just drop dead, and ever since, i've been so passive i'm even noticing it and hating it.

Well,that's as much as i wanna bother with today, so yea, i like my life, make no mistake about it, things can be better, i know it will , as long as i stay true with God.

I will find my place, in the diary of Jane, so tell me how it should be.- Diary of Jane, Breaking Benjamin.