Sunday, February 28, 2010


-Just this once, just for now, and just like that, it's over-

Sunday, February 21, 2010

That's What He Said

He said: Without money, life is hard.

I say: That's true, it's damned truth! People will come and say, " But think of other people, they are poorer and less fortunate, count ya blessings!" I can't argue with that, but i can say that we are living in a society where we are less fortunate as well, it's like how you can't compare how much you earn here and spend in UK with if you work in UK and spend there, it's unfair. We are placed in situations where our problems are relative to our surroundings.

No money, one of life's stupid problems, but it is how the world works. In the circle of life, animals eat other animals in order to survive, and those who are preys are also hunters, it's nature's barter system, you trade life for another, in that sense, it is "monetary". But the world as usual screws it up, now things are getting more expensive, our pay doesn't go up, and we keep looking for the higher paying job, we gamble, we buy stocks, play forex, all for the sake of getting more money. So money is the deal in life, but i would disagree that it should be the sole motivation, there are many things more, just, sometimes life fucks you up to screw you.


He said: Till now, i have no achievements that is remotely related to happiness.

I say: I hate medias, they put too much shit and emphasis to sensationalize things, and knowing sometimes our dumb brains, we tend to believe everything in it. Last year, i went to bangkok, the news reported riots and all, but when i landed there, it was awesome and peaceful, save for a few parts. When churches starts getting burnt down here, the world thinks we are screwed, wait we totally are, but because news gets out of hand, hatred is cited, what more with technology, we can start forums or groups that breeds hatred, sometimes i wonder if God is weeping so hard that we are desensitized to it we don't even care anymore. We purposely dumb ourselves down? Making us nothing more than just animals that can progress but yet being stupidly assholes?

So to you my friend, screw that shit, degrees = paper that you can buy off the street and no one will even know it's fake, "achievements" is just something we believe that we are supposed to have, but what achievement is it to be PM of the country and yet, you're not happy? How is that an achievement, think about it. Being selfish, to want to be happy isn't wrong, you just have to know that there is a line you don't cross, but before that line, to want to be selfish is ok.

He said: 5 years we will drink beer on a rooftop overlooking the city and look back and laugh at all these moments and think how stupid we were.

I say: I will see you there in 5 years.

It is now the 3rd year, where are we now?
We are moving, guided by the invisible hand.
2 more years, we will make it.

See you there.

-Purple Haze-

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Friday, February 19, 2010

The day before the day after tomorrow


i'll be walking to work for the first time since i started

i'll be off before 5 pm

i say goodbye to another working week

i'll laugh with good comrades

i'll have the wee hours of the morn to myself quietly spent thinking

i'll quietly hope that the day gets better

i'll play my guitar and pretend i am fulfilling my dreams

tomorrow, i be happy :)

Thursday, February 18, 2010


She smiles as she walks by

The nervousness as you stare into her eyes

Then thoughts gushes without warning

The realization of truth that is dawning

You desecrated time

An offense, an avoidable crime

That 365 days

Wasted away

Now as the smile fades

Your soul retreats, to the shades

Wondering, ever wondering

But too late, long gone, you just stand.. alone.

Friday, February 12, 2010


Opening Scene:

- In front of computer, eyes shows no sign of life, papers flipping, steps hurries from one place to another.

- situation: White, windowless.... Suits wearing Humans (the horror).

Survival of the fittest.

I like to think i am ok with working, or rather where i am right now, but i am not.

I probably can stay and linger on, just come what may and i will swallow it, but no.

I realized life is just too short to "stick it out", to "maybe it will be better".

If God gave us hands and feet and brains, then by all means, we can actually do something about it.

Actually, things are happening too fast, i used to be resistant to change, but now i welcome it, change is good, it helps you filter things out fast, who knows if you might just vanish tomorrow suddenly? Then at least however short of a time you have, you did what you could.

On a happier night, working made me love my nephew a lot more, s happy to see him smile when i get back home, sometimes would just stay home to play with him when i could go out and hang with friends.

Life is a lot more, i think, it's up to you when you wanna say stop.

Tuesday, February 09, 2010

I'm on my knees


I call


Tuesday, February 02, 2010


I am a member of the workforce of Malaysia

If this is growing up, then well, hooray for me :)