What if...? -Episode 1-

Before i start on today's entry, i wanna give a shout out to my mom!!

My mom has been wonderful to me and my family, even though she has her own flaws, nothing really stands out. I'm blessed to have her, sometimes i think she is unfortunate to have me as a son. haha!

But all in all, she didi a great job in serving God and her family. Sometimes i pity her for not having the life she could have. I'm glad my sister in doing well in her studies, probably she has to feed my mum next time because i'm sure to be poor hahah!!

My mom really is great, i bet your moms are too. Some do not have the luxury of being with their mother, i'm sorry about that. That's why i'm taking this chance to thank her! The only thing i regretted doing to her was that i was embarrassed of her when she showed up in front of my friends back in primary school. Sigh, what a jerk i was then, eh wait, i still am a jerk! But not to my own mom!! Now she can follow me wherever she wants haha!!

Thanks mom!!

Ok back to my entry, from this entry onwards i'll have a What If session from time to time.
That came as an idea today when we were out mamaking and eating ice-cream at prissy's place. We were talking so much things that could have been or what if things.. so might as well i blog about all the what if stuff.

I'll kick it off by doing one what if entry. If you have any idea or What if topics, feel free to tell me, i'll blog it.

By the way, what you are going to read is entirely spawned by my own mind and thoughts and beliefs, meaning it is an egocentric kind of entry. So feel free to comment, but don't go telling me it's not logic or what not. savvy? Great.

What if... Episode 1

Lordson was as nice as his sister Dewgem?

Well, technically, he is. But!!!! He just doesn't show it because then he would be the same as his sister, which was what Lordson is trying to avoid!

So, simply, what is Lordson really shows his nice side? Well, he'd probably will have more friends. But in the long run, his friends will think he is boring and probably never really wanna call him out for anything. He'd just be another boy wasting air in this world. Girls would find him boring. He'd get bullied.

Also, his churchmates probably will not be trained to have a high tolerance level. TGCM probably won't get her bf. Prissy will probably have more face problems(hehe). HocMunism will be even quiter. Nesh will not be the only nice guy anymore. Rach won't have anyone to argue with. See? The world will turn upside down.

Plus all the girls he ever liked won't like him because he is nice. Not badass enough to keep them awake.

So after my pilot episode of What If...? Don't ya think Lordson is just perfect the way he is??

- Upcoming episode will be here when i have bright ideas, feel free to submit some What If topics, can be anything! And read my version of it. No worries, even if you ask for something stupid like What if Lordson and HocMunism were really gay lovers also it's alright. That's the whole point.-

"Gordon: But you're only one man.
Batman: Now we're two."

Christmas isn't Just Any Christmas!

To be frank, this year's Christmas seriously ain't the same as last year's.

We did so many things that we do not do in the past.

We went so far just to sing carols, to witness the preaching of God's word to so many races. Truly every knee shall bow and every tongue confess. It was just plain amazing.

By itself it's nothing to shout about but when you have the Holy Spirit, you can truly see amazing things that far surpasses our limited human understanding! Praise the Lord for once again opening my eyes! It is very refreshing!! Whoo-hoo!!

Just this week alone was a good enough testimony, the things I've seen in my Uni and in church, man, awesome. Words just don't justify what happened.

A couple hours ago, for once in my life, i went to a shopping mall( namely The Curve) for a Christmas countdown with fellow S.A.D. members. We jus hung out and mingled in the crowd. I like crowd, very interesting. Then before the clock struck 12, people went frenzy and sprayed each other with fake snow and confetti! We were casualties of war!

Met up with two church mates - AnnaBanana and EctasC. Saw Jordano and his girl friend Sharon too. We hung out a bit and we guys by request waslked the girls back to their car.

Seeing how we always don't do something we never do before. We had a trolley cart race!
It was stupid, crazy but fun and funny! Naresh and EstasC sat in the trolley and was pushed. Maniacs like Keren disregarded road safety and went past a reversing car, almost killing Naresh and himself. Tsk tsk. But oh well, you gotta do what you gotta do, in the end he won the race!! Woots!!

the guard saw us but did not say anything, so i'm pretty sure we're alright.

One of the best countdowns ever(probably due to the fact it was my only one outside of church or home). This Christmas, though it feels blue-sy to me, butit's no doubt the most amazing and most interesting one!

War on Christmas

Well, this war is pitting Jesus against every other stupid christmas stuff..

Screw santa clause, elves (though if one looks as good as Arwen from LOTR, i wouldn't mind meeting her) and everything else that has nothing to do with Christ.

I'm sure this sermon has been preached oh so many times, so to spare you the agony, i shall dive right into the topic of the day!!

Church and Christmas!!!

notice the Christ in Christmas?
And Mas in Christmas?


That's right folks! It's Christ for the Mass!!
So we should be thankful that God gave His only Son to die for us and be born on this day.. Yet so many churches screw the meaning of it all.

"it's all about giving, oh and the performances, and the food!"
Bunch of BS.
It's all about and only about Jesus.

We always have our big christmas celebration, that's a good thing mind you, we should all celebrate the fact that baby Jesus came tot his world. What is wrong is that the people want to do things to glorify themselves instead.

Example, having a gigantic huge rally, then having songs and party like the rapture happened.
Some even have performances that are purely entertainment, no message involved. I for one do not like it. If it's a performance, do it with a meaning for Jesus, not just to fill up time and quota. If it's about the numbers, then we're screwed. We do so much, one question left to be asked, "where is the message??"

I've seen with my own eyes, we ought to give Christmas back it's meaning. We ought to be humble and bring it down to basics. No presents? Fine with me. No performances? Cool.

What we need is a time to thank the Lord, really really thank Him. Maybe repent or two.
We need to love, forgive and receive healing.
Christmas is about you and Jesus, not anything else. It's about giving the world a dose of god's love. It's about Jesus.

Naresh!

Aiyoyoyoy, Naresh came back to Malaysia after 4 months spent in Medan, sporting a Elvis-ish hairstyle(probably due to the flight back here, won't stay that way long i guess).

Ahh, S.A.D. is finally coming back together.

Welcome back my friend!!!

Now we just gotta be merry, eat and drink endlessly at your house!! Free food!! Here i come!!

M.E.N -----> Men Equals Numskulls

Men, one of God's coolest creation. Fully equipped with a brain and capability to do many cool stuff, such as eating, sex, making fire and of course the best one of them all---sleeping.

But then again, men has disappointed God oh so many times. Totally dumb and such an ass.

Being one of them, i literally mean mean, as in male, i can't help but feel that we are responsible for a lot of things. The men falls easily, to 3 things -fame, women and money. It is so easy to just throw your life away as a christian and sin. I totally can testify to that.

Even now in church, the women are doing more than the men. Not only that, in most families, the men are the one that causes the most problems and more often than not the wife are the ones who suffer, thus causing the child to suffer in one way or another as well.

Where has all the good men gone? I can tell you where, mostly dead or in the movies.

But all hope is not lost. There are some good men out there, they just need to rise up and go forth and be a man of God. Let us not leave the job to women only, let us have balls to do our part in this world.

Speaking as a male, let's go forth and multiply!!

Silent Night, Out with the Lights.

For the first time in so many months, i played football!!!! Woots!!!! =)

i did a header and assisted Simon aka EggGuy into scoring a goal!!! Ha! what an accomplishment!!!!!

I also defeated EggGuy by scoring against him once myself!!! (so if you have been reading correctly, you'd know what a doofus i am in football, if you don't get it, good!)

It was a good game, sweat a lot under the scorching sun. Went home and indulged in my tv shows... i like to get lost in the imaginary world, an idiot for the box i would call myself.

Evening- Went caroling with the taman sea-ians CF, played the guitar, awful playing i would say, didn't practice, i knew i shouldn't have skipped practices hehehe. We went to 3 houses and sang and ate and be merry, as christmas-y as it should be.

The final house was Rach's house, where the electric supply was cut off from the whole neighborhood. So we sang in the presence of candles and sweaty bodies, but it was fun to say the least.

the fellowship was cool. Oh, and due to my extremely dry skin ezcema related), i played the guitar till my finger bled.

Went murni's after that and had a drink. Some of the carolers didn't join us, some secret committee going on hahaha, oh well, shall not elaborate on that too much.. suffice to say, my day was busy.

In an unrelated story, my church girl mates all flew to kudat for mission trip, well, erm, nothing much to add, just that it feels good that TGCM and her sis are so far away HAHAHA

....sigh.

A Birthday Gift Long Overdue.

Darn it!! Sorry TGCM, i meant to write you that song for your birthday, i really nailed the tune and words, then got distracted by petty stuff and i lost it!! And it was such a nice song! CRAP!

Mind waiting a bit more?
I hope so. Promise it'll be good.
Thanks.

James Kim : 1971- 2006

I've been following this story concerning James Kim, the Cnet.com prduct reviewer.
His efforts to save his family have garnered respect from everywhere in the world. Even before that, he has already been reputed as a family man, a good husband and father and a very good man.

Yet, he died saving his family. A true hero. My respect goes out to him and condolences goes out to his family who stayed strong in times like this.

Here i dedicate this post to him.
Read about him through the following websites:
http://news.com.com/2009-12-6141617.html?tag=cnetfd.ld1
http://news.com.com/James+Kim+found+deceased/2100-1028_3-6141498.html

See the video tribute too:
http://www.cnettv.com/9710-1_53-25121.html?om_act=convert&clk=gumballs&tag=gumballs;subtitle;0

Even though i only knew him online, i think his way of life is admirable. I pray God will welcome him with opens hands when he goes to heaven.

Rest in peace.

James Kim : 1971 - 2006

"Can you keep a secret?"

Took a medicine that is sedative.. feeling groggy right now. Should be studying.. but... Can't focus, maybe after typing this entry it'll be okay.

Went 1 utama for fun today with two friends, wasn't much to see. Boy, you'd think the girls be flooding the shopping malls right now since it's school holidays! Alas, not many to be found, sad sad.

Had a fluctuation of emotions today, was feeling happy this morning, then sad during lunch time, then felt so sleepy, then i felt angry.

I was angry when i thought about all the christians out there not being a christian! I'm scolding everyone out there including myself.

it is just so sad the gospel is cheapened by christians who wants the easy way out. They'll do all sort of crappy stuff and then think that they can repent and still go to heaven. Boy, are they ever so wrong!

Bible stated you got to do the will of God to enter heaven. Ultimately, we got to be Christlike, if we strive to have a intimate relationship with God, then automatically doing His will for you comes. Sadly, i gouni everyday, i see so called christians doing stuff that makes me sick! Yea, even in CF, CF=Crappy fellowship! Yea man, i know you think i'm being self-righteous, maybe you're right, but still i am so not satisfied with the values the so called christians are keeping.

I rather if you became an atheist or a free tinker than to cheapen the name of Jesus! Prosperity gospel, rockish worship, all just to glorify yourself, to make you feel good! When trouble comes, you all run away faster than speedy gonzales!

The Lord giveth and taketh away, just like in Job, in Paul, in Peter etc. Christianity isn't for losers who wants to have worldly pleasure, or wants a feel good worship in some conference, who are overindulged in a christian band that when people criticize it biblically you put on a defensive armor and fire back. No! i tell you, Christianity is for those who are willing to abandon useless sidetrack and go all out for Christ.

I urge thee my brothers and sisters, can you take time to reconsider how your life has been going on? If Jesus were to take you to heaven, are you ashamed or satisfied? Can you bear to walk through the gates of heaven with your head held high?

I need Jesus more than anything.
Even when i feel alone, praises i will sing.
I need thee more than silver or gold.
The gospel to people must be told.
If ever i turn my back on You.
I'd be an idiot, a useless fool.
Lord, myself as sacrifice i bring.
I need You more than anything.

36 minutes to midnight

Back from mamak session, and it's about 36 minutes to midnight, sitting for my finals this thursday and friday, what am i doing online?!?!?

pc fair was a drag, nothing really great about it, just got to see the almighty PS3 and Wii, but both cost a bomb, a leg, a hand and probably a few armpit hair.

a friend, christian friend, was annoyed and somewhat angry i went clubbing, well, i will tell you again, it isn't a good hobby, and certainly won't help you in your walk with God, but i cannot tell you it is so sinful that it is detestable in God's eyes.

till now i prayed to God if my decision to go clubbing once with my course mates was really such a bad thing, but till now i received no conviction, nothing, zilch, nothing nope! So was it bad in your opinion?

here is my argument:
I prayed before i went, i decided not to go, but then somehow along the way, i was moved to go, so i did, i didn't like what happened during clubbing sessions, the promiscuity, the loose actions, the drinking, the music, well, almost everything. My course mates drank alcohol while i drank the coke that was used to mix with the alcohol.

Yea, dancing was cool, i did all the stephen chau sing chi dance used in his movies, i couldn't do all the sensual dance, it wasn't me, plus who am i kidding? if i did that, i'll probably make everyone puke. eheh

Plus, i get to see stuff that was such an eye opener that it struck me deep, and i had to wrestle with some issues, my christian friend argued saying i placed myself in place of temptations, and also that there were other ways to see what i see and to learn what i learned there. Well it may be true, but i guess i'm more of the visual and experience kind of guy, plus, it has it pros too, such as i got to take care of my sick friend there, while everyone was dancing.

So what say you? am i at fault? please, if you think i am, gun me down man, make me beg on my knees for forgiveness, if not, please rethink your opinions from another perspective. I believe that some things are so black and white, if i avoid all the bad things in this world, am i really going to learn and grow? it is a matter of principle and your maturity, for me, i like to get my hands dirty, and yes, my approach is highly discouraged because i know what kind of effects it has on me, so i'll advise the rest to go do something else.

All in all, i am what God made me to be, i answer to Him, but you can comment if ya want, i really wanna know what you think of this issue.

Note: my friends going to club again after our finals, guess i won't be joining them, not my cup of tea. Plus my pocket is burned so deep,i can't see the end.