"Too Bad"

"Everyone's got to face down the demons, Maybe today, We can put the past away"

"It's too bad that we had no time to rewind. Let's walk, let's talk."

"A Summer's Disregard, A Broken Bottle Top And A One Man's Soul"

"I must have been confused or vain to let this evil in my brain."

"Before this room became just a place. Where I just sleep through endless days. Spinning webs and carving names. Where thoughts break up, exploding in space"

"Why can't we see when we bleed we bleed the same?"

"Running in circles. Chasing our tails. Coming back as we are."

"She's a shooting star, good night, good night."

"Signed, with a home tattoo, happy birthday to you was created for you."

"Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life. Trying to make ends meet, trying to find somebody then you die."-Speak to the Hand-

So Say We All

" 8Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. " - James 4:8

In HocMun's entry about James,

He mentioned about christian duty, for me, i go to verse 8 instead, saying the quoted found above.

Double-minded, this was the verse as i broke sabbatical and went back to a church for a service, and this was the verse that had made the most impression on me.

Why?

Because of late I've been exploring grounds that were once thought restricted and boundaries once untouched. And the attractions of the world apart from God is enticing, entrapping, and "alive". But God hates luke warm people, He agrees to a certain extend what Katy Perry sings, "You're hot then you're cold." It's better to be one or the other than in the middle unlike malcolm (Tv show joke reference), so i have to pick a side soon. Pretty soon, and i most likely will know where i want to stand. For once you tasted the truth, ignoring it brings sure death and doom that can be blamed on no one save you.

Below are some pics i edited a lil to test out new software for fun, unfortunately photoshop won't install on my comp, so i make do make do, and was alright with editing using another software which does the job just as well though maybe not as thorough. (Note: I did not do a good job of putting the pics in the ori size, so if wanna view, please click on the pic for the full view.)

-Bioshock-

-She's The One-

-There She Sits-

Never Gonna Be As Big

Petrosains is actually a cool place to go too.

But the galeri petronas just a floor below is just as interesting. Saw some cool artworks by local artists, and it was interesting, there was like clay displays, paper mache stuff and aluminum foil faces and much more, too bad no photography allowed! Bet it could turn out to be some pretty cool pics.

And it was free!!! Not so for petrosains, with student ID, still close to about RM10, but i guess since i paid it, might as well take my time.


Thought it'd be childish, first they put you in some semi time capsule and take you a looooooooooooooong ride to the next section, slow and i found out m'sians terlalu egoistic hahaha, don't think it is healthy, but i guess that's why we got so many stuff going on right now that people are pissed off.

Anyway, petrosains is a good place to be educated in stuff, problem solving, how some industries actually go about doing their work, i was kinda taken aback by the oil rig works, i thought oil rig was pure labor, showing off my manly muscles shirtless and sweat covering my body under the blazing sun, girls will go wild!

But noooo, it had to be about engineering and things involving valve pipes and timing and all that stuff. Argh! Is there a no brainer job?? I need one.

All in all, Friends and I spent a bit too much time playing arounf inside, especially the F1 area, kinda a lot of cool interactive stuff.

Will i go again? No. I mean, if got BETTER company, i would consider, but no.

In case you were wondering, i am doing better in my sabbatical. =)

-Cylons-

Awaken The Dawn

Another mortal went back to dust, lately death has been lingering around longer than we come to be familiar with.

Time is short, so?

Recently, my class assignment was to write on your tombstone, i planned something funny, but in the end scrap it, in case i lose marks.

Funny la my lecturers, rajin a bit do work, then say we unprepared and minus 2 marks!
Haiyo.

Ok rant over.

Funny tombstone writings:

Remember man, as you walk by, As you are now, so once was I, As I am now, so shall you be, Remember this and follow me. To which someone replied by writing on the tombstone: To follow you I'll not consent, Until I know which way you went.

In a Ruidoso, New Mexico cemetery: Here lies Johnny Yeast, pardon me for not rising.

In a Georgia cemetery: "I told you I was sick!"

Courtesy of http://www.onmylist.com/category/miscellaneous/Funny_Tombstones_1

-Stairway to heav..?-

Huh?

I don't usually go blog tags, no i still don't, but now since this 25 random things about (apparently)myself is going about.

Let me do a 10 totally random things about myself:

1. My eczema is the main reason i didn't bother joining badan berunit beruniform last time, save for the first 3 years of high school life where i slaved myself in stupid st. john for don't know what. Got humiliated, got hated, no girls thought i was awesome in the uniform, and worst of all I PAID FOR THE STUPID UNIFORM. (Also eczema is reason i most of the time don't do sports or outdoor activities, i am a sad sad kid.)
2. I always go for girls and lose momentum halfway, uh-oh, hope that is not some indication of something in the future after i get married, hmm...
3. I find HocMun's younger sister quite hot.
4. Though i hate to admit it, i have a yellow bear in my room, but it was a gift, can't throw it away, so it was/is always there...
5. I always wanted to be a pilot.
6. I have a black and white clothing phase since high school. A period i like white clothes, a period i like black, a period i like white, a period i like black.
7. I never thought thegirlchurhmate's sis was chun.OK!! that wasn't it, just wanted to throw that in. What i meant to say was that i am actually nice.
8. I actually have more friends, but i only hang out with about 5-7 people, EVERY TIME, SAME PLACE, doing the same thing, talking the same thing, i have loads of friends, but i only stick to them, oh my goodness! WHY???
9. I thought i was gay once (seeing how i am girlfriend-less, up till now, sigh)
10. Broke my leg when i was 9, mom refused to buy me breakfast on a sat morning, and i went to buy for myself then, reading Doraemon comic book, i slipped and fell in the double-layered drain while trying to cross it while reading the comic.
    

-Going all the way down-

Freshmen

I remember teaching form 1 and 2 students, and boy was i terrible, of course apart from trying to be cool and all in school and totally hate the system there, still it was a good experience.
Problem is, i didn't show equality to all students.

Why? Some students annoyed the heck out of me. So i picked who i like and who i don't. Uh-oh. I became a cliche teacher, the kind where i hated because they showed partiality. So why do we fall into cliches? Human nature?

I realized i couldn't love all the kids the same because everyone is different, and though i appeared to, i could not. And now, thinking back, i felt stupid, if i did not show them equality, then they would hate the system and their subsequent teachers, which could be partially my fault as well.

And now, going to graduate, if i were to pursue what i am studying now, i realized i cannot be a counselor or a clinical psychologist, for i would be biased and impose my own values.

If i were to be religious, i could not love everyone , and though i could appear to, i know in my heart i would not.

Even when meeting new people, physical attraction plays a role in my divided attention, bullcrap about inner beauty first, if not for the outside, i wouldn't care less the inside, though there are a few exceptions.

I realized my care and time is not for everyone, and i have to accept it from others as well. If Jesus can show that kind of love, did he not empower us to do so as well?

Whats the point of religion if you are no better than any one in the world?

-It's true-hoo, look how they shine for you-oo-

Dike

CNY is ending, i mean in a fashion that is erm,

it just means i have to stop sleeping late, mamak less and return to uni! Argh!!

How can you take the pressure of being the president of a powerful country, that won't negotiate with terrorist but yet if you don't, risking your own citizens' innocent lives?
Deciding between doing the right thing that may cause casualties or doing the wrong thing to save lives, where is the compromise?

Answer: We need a damn Jack Bauer.

Or if no such person then erm, i also wouldn't know what to do really.

Is it ok to do something wrong in order to do the right thing?
In my opinion, wrong is always a wrong, no way you can push around it, the end doesn't justify the means, i know how naive that can sound, but still, try to stick to it if possible, somethings you do you can never undo it, think about that.

In the meantime, its the weekends!!! LET ME ENJOY MY LAST REAL CNY MOMENTS! WHOO-HOO!

-I'm Like a Bird-

crapss

I totally overslept on a accidental nap!

And missed an online group meeting discussing some stuff that needed to hand in the following day!
Bugger!

Crap man, they already think i am slacking, in their defense though, the things i do are not obvious loud.

Argh, the pain of being in a group. Darn it.

Why did i have to sleep? Though it was precious, but still, my group mates are gonna hold this on me for awhile and now i have to do all the crappy work just because of this!

The only positive thing out of this was that i had a outright awesome dream which i cannot divulge here. Clearly etched in my mind now, so i could retrieve it anytime, thank God for long term memory, now to apologize to my group mates..

-Man-

Why do i feel...

...like my crazy amazon lady neighbor is a bother?
She just wanted to borrow some candles if i have some to spare, i know she is taking advantage, but if i have any to spare, shouldn't i help anyway? She is alone, mentally ill and have no water or electricity source, she just needed some bloody candles, why do i feel like she owed me her life or something.

...like an escapist escaping from this place? Got too many things to worry, yet not doing anything, important things going to shamble and becoming rubble, but i'm still trying to leave it a day later and later and later.

...like 2nd rate?

...like God is so far from me?

...like i am myself, when i know i ain't the same?

...this post is silly, since no one knows anything anyway?-Beginning of a life sentence-

(Kid)ding.

Chinese new year. Yay!

Not going back Mom's hometown, so free to do anything. Wait, too free!
Dammit!

Dad's relatives dropped by, no idea who are they. Apparently i damn small that time they knew me and sae, oh whatever!
But have they rights to comment on me? NO.
WHO THE HECK ARE THEY?
I read a blog entry once, it says during CNY, relatives damn stupid, always ask stupid things that make you feel like crap.
1. You got gf/bf already? Aww, no?
2. Hey, did you grow fatter?
3. You working already? No, how old are you??
4. Psychology? What the heck? So you like mental patients?
5. No seriously, have you grown fatter?

Man, annoying, can't you be like all nice and lovely instead?
And also, THEIR KIDS

WEI, kids man,
My mom babysat quite a few babies, but when they are 5 and below, they are shoooooo cuutteeeeee i wanna squeeze them tight and just not let go, unless they suffocate and die, then i let go.

But when they are OLDER, ANNOYING ALAM SOUND PLEASE!

Like my dad's relative punya kids, think you what, your house ah? Ordering me around, show no respect, don't even remember my name wei!
Can't use the computer, wait, your generation doesn't know how to use the comp? AMAZING! seriously, i was dumbfounded, i thought this generation onwards all comp savvy, i was wrong!
Anyway, don't know please ask! NOT ORDER, thank you hoc mun for saving me from them before i went nuts.

Bottomline:
Babies = yes (only if you don't have to take care of them, only play)
Children = NO!

-Smoke on the water (guitar solo rings!)-

Year of the bull, ox? bull? cow??

Not going back Mom's home town, meaning less ang pows!

But then again, means more relatively alone time here!!! Well, i say relatively, meaning the roads will be awesome to drive your car on! Take yesterday, no jam, super smooth, how rare is that?

But no ang pows = less money, crappology, meaning this year gonna be poor like heck, okok, poor is the wrong word, there are people who are really poor.

And i am fortunate to have clothes, food and shelter, I have the first few Mazlow's pyramid covered, i'm good i'm good.

I realized we always take things for granted, say, sleeping time, its a time to rest and prep for the next day, how awesome is that?

How about just doing nothing, solitude is a precious gift God gave us. Doing nothing is healthy! If not all the prophets and Jesus wouldn't be doing it!

Oh oh, how about not conforming, we always take for granted being yourself is unacceptable, humans are flawed. They always need acceptance, no one is truly unique, and i think its not cool, if a person cannot be who God made that person to be, then might as well throw a shoe to God and say, "piss off"

So stop judging your friends, if they are jerks and idiots and bearable, BEAR WITH IT. If not go screw yourself and get friends hanging on strings to be your pals.

There's also your mom, don't take her for granted.

The only things you can take for granted are girl friends and boy friends, not important in life!

Muahahha.

-Bridexplotion-

I Do (?)

Currently listening: Plumb, Lifehouse and Audio Adrenaline.
Hoping: Take more pics, haven't been taking much.
Doing mostly: Sleeping, sweet sleep. one of God's best creation.


Just got home not too long ago from a meet up with a couple of church mates whom i haven't seen in awhile, one even just got home from Australia not too long ago, so it was good. If not i don't know when i would actually meet up with them.

It was pretty early into the night, but the married couple deemed late and was looking pretty worn out and was ready to head home, while usually for me the night was too young.

Does marriage actually make you boring??

Ok let me try to analyze.

First you gotta invest in making the effort to obtain a girl friend (for me ler, boyfriend if you all are girls) : Investment
now of course not every tom, dick and harry or in this case sue, mary and maria can be your girl friend right? Unless you're playing around or have really low standards or you're blind, or well, you were meant to be with them.
Getting a girl to be your girlfriend gonna be tough, first must be friends :(
Then must be her best friend, then must have the guts to pop the question and prepare for 90% chance of rejection.

Ok, if you pass that, congratulations! Now the bloody hard part kicks in: Maintenance.
Maintaining a girl friend is hard in my opinion, unless the girl is wholly devoted to you and submissive, i think most guys find it hard to maintain it.
You gotta make it stay fresh, keep her attracted to you.
Hardest part is to BE LOYAL to her.
Almost (no empirical evidence to back this up) all the time when you have a girlfriend, A LOT of hot girls who ain't your girl friend will start popping up in your life, most of the time making you sway your devotion from your current girl to another, or at least think, "Damn, did I get a gf too early while there are plenty of girls to consider?"

Also, financial is a problem, unless you're a rich brat or working, i doubt you have the money to go dating, you REALLY wanna spend your parent's hard earned money on another individual? hmm?
And if your gf is high maintenance, your wallet is screwed, always must pay for her, fetch her around. But if your gf don't mind spending time with you as dating, or go out mamak or use public transport, then count yourself awesomely fortunate.

Last but not least, if you let your gf be boss over you, meaning you always do what she says, you're also screwed, first you will have less friends, then you will spend too much time interacting with her, pretty much you're a prisoner in your own home or her home or of her.

Ok say you got through all of those, and still in a relationship, crap, you are good, you made it!
So whats the next step? : Seal the Deal.
Yea, propose to her, you idiot!
Assuming you gonna give up a lot of freedom, hang out time, mamak time, talking to other girls a lot, cannot be sloppy, money is now shared, cannot buy your stuff, manga and anime will be thrown out the window, football or any sports you like and time spent significantly reduced.
Of course got perks too, but i think cost outweighs benefits.

Ok, proposing, unless your gf is artistic and like weird stuff, don't bet that your gf gonna fall for your "Fig ring", "can ring", "diamonds don't matter cheapass ring". Girls already fall for the advertisement devil's trap that diamonds are symbols of love! which is total bullcrap.
So you gonna spend a lot on the stupid ring.
Then you have to find the right time to propose.
NO! NO! Don't do stupid things like banner proposal or billboard, it's stupid, waste of money and i think not romantic.
Do stuff like sing with a guitar (cliche but girls sucker for it), or do a broadway or something out of the ordinary so you can brag to your friends and kids later.

Assuming she said "yes." you're good to go!
Next is: Pay the price.... wait for it..... FOREVER!

First, wedding is bloody expensive, unless your family don't mind some non-cliche weddings, (I hate chinese weddings, my wedding will be awesome). You're screwed financially, one wedding cost a bomb, bride's wedding dress, pro photographer (that's why now perk of being into photography so your chun friends can take your pics for free, *cough*hoc mun*cough, oh they must be good la, so er, no offense if i call someone else if you suck in it), dowry (if it still exist), wedding dinner etc etc!

Ok, after all that hassle, you're married! You experience things for the first time in your life like making love, having a companion at home, someone to cook for you (like a maid) etc. Also I am assuming you don't sleep around much ler.

Few years down the road, you finally starting to know your partner, and you either accept and reject their true self, not only that, wife wants your commitment, and so she wants you home all the time and spend 'quality' time and less with your buddies, whom i think are also important.
You work from 9-5, come home exhausted, but wife wants to talk and ask you take care of kids.
She forbids you from reading manga, playing games, online, watching "unproductive" movies etc etc.
You have no time for guitar, no time to climb up the corporate ladder (if you lazy due to marriage commitments la), no time for other social interaction, no time for exercise (which explains the tummy bulging out), all you can do is hope your brat kid grow up fast so you can retire and catch up on time lost due to marriage.

Then you die.

What if you were single slightly longer?
Scenario changes.
You focus on work, be at the top of ladder, and now girls admire you more, easier to get gf, financial wise no problem, house and car you got, pay for wedding and diamonds? Small expenses versus the amount of business class trips you make. Wife wants you around the house, you got 3G phone, can always "spend quality time" since you can see her while making a call, and because you're at the top of the ladder, a lot of parties and business calls to make, your wife would and should understand. So you got a life outside of house. Wife complains you not helping, hire a maid, you got enough savings so no need rely on your brat kid to grow up fast, can take it slowly and enjoy life while having everything else.

So why rush into marriage or even looking for a gf?
Chill man.



Sigh, I'm still single.

-One By One-

Scam!

"I like psychology, but 'I AM U' also offers medical...."

Radio commercial i heard over the radio....

First of all, if you wanna do medicine, why mention psychology? And by mentioning "also", are you somehow implying and referring to some other uni like, i don't know, some uni that is famous for offering Psychology as a course? hmm?

Stupid commercial, fight fair la.

-Sea of Familiar Faces-

Backdoor

Sundays are a good time to rest.

Rest is good.

It leads to refreshment.

And reflection.

-FunHouse-

The Rat Clothed In Gold

My sis, not a brother i wished i had,
but things aren't really that bad.
She maybe fire and i am water,
but she makes a fine sister and a damn good daughter.

I fight with her, i argue with her, lots,
but that doesn't mean i ran her out of my thoughts.
Rather, she is just being her and me being me,
And i wouldn't trade our relationship for for any amount of money.

All in all, after all has been said and done,
We may have our bad times and horrible, some.
But, she's still my sister and no one can take her place.
Happy birthday Dewgem, hope this puts a beautiful smile on your face! =)

-Only One In The World-

Drinks for Thought

Sometimes, people get prettier the more you know them. Inner beauty? Love?

Or you just lowered your standards?

A pastor always preach on sunday, but always, halfway thru, the congregation leave, leaving the pastor feeling embarrassed.
So what does he do?
The following sundays, he told the congregation he first preach a sermon for the sinners, then only for the righteous. So, halfway, he said the sermon was preached, the sinners can leave, no one left, and the pastor gets to preach his sermon till the end.
Hypocrites?

When a friend no longer knows how to listen. Still a friend? or an acquaintance?

Rather be known as the intelligent one or the funny one? (hehe, written specifically with someone in mind)

Follow what you wanna do or live stereotypically?

Purposeful living or living happily?

Pray and hope that God will provide for your parents when they retire and you go ahead and do something else or rely on your own and earn bloody heck loads of cash for your parents and your future family?

-Colored People-

Dead to Sin

This year i should graduate, hopefully if all is well and good, planned out the subjects i need to complete my studies, please let it be ok!

Thesis to be started this sem, still empty in my head, blank, tabula rasa, dead inside, whatever, i can't think of something to kick start, there goes my Honest.

On the bright side i got a 4 day weekend, due to my nicely packed schedule. More time for drinks, call me dammit.
ook, not that desperate hehe.

Are christians really some kind of zombie?

"Man, I ain't changed, but i know i' ain'tt the same" - One Headlight, The Wallflowers.

-The Broken Clock-

You're beautiful, you're confusing.

You're illogical, you're amazing.

I've seen the world, it's overrated.

-Empty Space, Lifehouse-

-Incoming-

Back Then...

Finally, the right keys to the right locks for the first time, one for the gate one for the door.

Right before, stepped out the car, greeted by gentle breeze, followed by noises of drunkards shouting, demanding to be heard, then became sobbing and cried, sad really, but true, "won't wanna be one like them." i muttered to myself.

Life in my neighborhood, never gets old, people die, mugged, stories to tell for those who want to listen if they spare the time.

During my formative teenager years, the awkward bodily changes and growing raging hormones somewhere in you, i spent most of it in a video shop down the road to the left. Beside a old man's bar, beside a prison old folks home (oddly, shaped like one), up some old stairs is a video shop! Renting out videos for a minimal fee, there i spent quite some time, being a dork i was/am, i just hung out, and strangely, mom didn't care much.

There i learned to read old written chinese words, how to bet on football, curse words, everything a mom shouldn't ever teach their son, i learned it all there. Of course i will not put anything up here that will do me no good, but i learned every bad there is. Grateful, but i think, next time, i just teach my kids, safer. My kids will yield.

-Graveyard for Rice-

Climbing Closer

2008:

- Clubbed with mom at zouk.

-Had worst sem ever.

-Fell sick mid year that paralyzed me for 2 months, during which i found out which people are truly nice and which are not.

-Best birthday ever with only a few close friends with a cake visited me when i was sick, hope they know how much how much it means to me (i know some were away, you're counted too)

-2nd best christmas ever, spent it at friend's house with a couple others talking crap.

-Mom the best. Always.

-Wasted plenty of petrol and time doing the stupidest things which i can't justify.

-Went vietnam.

-Gave up on a bunch of things.

-Got my new DSLR =))

-Got my hair cut twice, both which shortly after i fell terribly sick.

-Bought less than 5 new clothes.

-Best animated movie: Wall-E

-Best drama: The Dark Knight

-Best cartoon: Dragonball Z

-Best comedy: Yes Man

-Best band this year: Lifehouse

-Amended relationships/friendship 3 times

-Current Status: Lost, directionless. But still hanging by the moment =p

-Resolution: None.

-Last words for 2008: Just another day!
Bye.

-2009 wishlist (not resolution)"

• New lenses
• External flash
• GRADUATE
• Travel more
• Music
• Hopefully still alive
  

-Drifting-

Merry Christmas?

-Fairer than a thousand lilies-

Oh My God!...

... is a play i attended with TienMing, Rach, Justin and PapaBing.

Here are my thoughts on it:

- Some of me friends complained say its not nice and all. For me, i thought it was nicely done, the backdrop was nice, wall made with white squares which can be turned to a different color using lighting techniques, each color represents different settings and i think it somehow represents the mood of each scene.

- Noticed everything was white in the play, the furnitures, to the floor, to everything else but the actor's and actress' clothing. To me it represents purity, or what religion strives to present itself as. Since the play was about religion, as the title implies.

- The actor and actresses were pretty good, expressive, though some to me were overly expressive. I must agree with PapaBing that the director quickly used comic relief after every heavy statement on religion, to avoid conflict? or we still conservative in nature?

- In the play, it got me thinking, that religions are religions, what separates one from another? Aren't we in the end all humans and actually are related one way or another? Why then the world treats every one differently, sometimes solely based on religion allegiances. I guess, i was moved by the message that sometimes underneath all the things we wear and masks, we are just a fragile core easily shattered, easily broken.

- Also, another message i think it was trying to give was that why do we hold on to religion so much? to what end? for what purposes? Sometimes, embracing it too much quickly becomes a bad thing, we lose focus on what is important, what is needed, instead we want to be important to people that have no connection to your departure from this temporary world.

- Where do we stand? Are we just being religious to make ourselves feel better? To balance out the darker side of humanity? Things to ponder about, i guess if our motives are wrong in the first place, no different if we say we are followers of God or not.

Objective Review:
- Ok, enough of my own views of the message in the play. Here are some thoughts on the performance itself. (though i may have mixed it in earlier in the section above)
- Worth my money? It was alright, though i think the story could be written clearer and more things added to it, instead it was a bit too much talking, and if you don't know BM, i think a whole chink of it would be useless to you. (not cross-cultural).
- I don't understand why plays need to always make reference to sex or anything related to it. Intentional? I like to see a very witty play without some subtle jokes to sex. I agree it's funny, but only so much, only soooo much.
- As i mentioned, backdrops nice, acting standard quite good. One of the better plays i've seen, to me that is. =)

-Same Difference-

Fore!

-4th Pic in Hotel Washroom! ParkRoyal Hotel in Vietnam-

I'm back, Baby!

Falling For You

We did it! Mich! WE DID IT!

Haphazard planning to go to Sg. Pisang waterfall actually happened.

All started last week when i was suffering (studying some psych finals), Mich popped an offline message saying let's go waterfall, i agreed! And while i was not really a planner, some final pushes from her and we got a few people to go! (HocMun, Jeff, Justin, Mich, Mich's sister and also a friend - Ben, and myself)

So yes, tuesday morning, breakfast with me pallies, then rendezvous with Mich and her side. Then off we go!!
Unfortunately, we made a few errors while navigating =p
We ended up making a few wrong turns and had to backtrack to restart the whole journey, hehe.

But we managed to get there though unsure of our own navigating skills, with a help of a local, we managed to reach the starting point of the trek.

The locals warned us not to get lost, and don't follow voices O_o haha, they really meant don't follow the schoolchildren's voices there while trekking because it will lead off and we may get lost.
After much tips from them, we decided to start!
Er, unfortunately, we totally totally got screwed at the start, we crossed the river to the other side, to find the road leads no where (or so someone thought.....) so we crossed the river again, but the local redirected us back, so we crossed again, but we still clueless to where to go, then we decided go against the local's advice and trek a different path, mana tau we found the tunnels! BUT, we have to cross the river AGAIN, this time even in harsher conditions, since it was quite a hassle to cross the river at that point, after much tussle we did it! Whoa, about an hour plus JUST to get to the 2nd starting point!! Totally memalufying.......But the tunnel was cool, dark and kinda walking towards the light at the end of the tunnel hehehe


So we started our path, it's like stream trotting! Follow the river to its source, muddy, wet, but i thought it was pretty fun, nature! Took couple of pics, i think we had fun, or so i personally thought so. Streams weren't particularly hard, good thing i wore shoes, got much grip, only downside was it accumulates sand and rocks in ya shoe and makes it painful to walk. hahaha, also we actually lost quite a few stuff =p
Including a pair of slippers (one from two members makes a pair!)


Midway we met a group who came later than us but already on their way down, they said," You should have followed us". Haha, big help, but nah, it was alright. An hour passed, we got to the waterfall! It was awesome, had two water falling from two sides, a very nice sight. The waterfall became heavier with the passing of time, and the wind brought chills to our already wet self =)


Nice, cold, VERY COLD indeed. But it was nice to submerge yourself into the cold water and just relax. Of course, HocMun took pics and so did others. I like it there alot, well maybe some other time will head back there! All in all, a great experience, not everyday we get to leave the concrete jungle for something this natural, i guess i can get used to the idea of hiking and all, plus it paves way for great nature shots, which i am quite interested in.


Going back wasn't as long, because we kinda leveled up haha...Took us less than when we went up, found Justin's other slipper which he lost earlier, but kinda wasted, because he abandoned the other slipper elsewhere because we thought we couldn't retrieve it anyway ahahahaha, life, what games it plays on us hahaha


Went back to thank the local, he told us got a few more waterfalls ahead, but not for amateurs, apparently haha. And we had lunch and head home. Ahh, tired, but well worth it, good people, good weather, good trip. What a way to begin holidays!

A few hours planned trip became half a day outing haha. But we did it! Mich we did it! Congrats!
Woots!

-For or Against the Current?-

Water Course

Went shopping with mom, bought one stuff, then head home.

Think mom also cannot stand shopping with me, i detest window shopping (for clothes), if for guitar, or other me-related stuff, i totally would spend some time but still a relatively short while looking at it.

But good thing is, for the rest of the afternoon, it was my time, no one to chat with ( =( ), no one to email, no one called me, i called no one, mom left me alone, just me, myself and i.

And it was good, my text says some people deliberately find time alone but not to say they are anti-social, but a time to rest and find themselves and grow.
Precisely that!

It was good, so good, i wished it hadn't end so soon.
Just spent time watching, doing nothing, dazing, recollecting thoughts, thinking, missing, guitar, staring at the ceiling, gaming (yes, finally back into gaming, thank you holidays!), dreaming, reading.

I got a friendship hierarchy going on, sound bad, but there are acquaintances, friends, close friends and more than friends.
No points for guessing which one has the least people in it =p

Easier to organize, i mean i treat them all mostly the same, but when comes to things to prioritize, then i would prefer the higher ups than down, but i enjoy meeting all, so don't get me wrong, just easier to organize this way.

Rarely i shift people around, but some tend to move up, rarely people move down. But as i always say, close friends i need a few is enough.
You bother to know where you stand? haha, as if i bother telling as well.

2 days into my holidays, seems so little and so much to do!

Anticipating 2009. A full year ahead. Will you join me?

-Hmmmmmm-

The Joke

-Always someone out there better than you, accept it or fight?

-Waves of familiar faces, are you one of them?

-Throne traded for the scars, can you do the same?

-Amidst the crowd, is there a place for you?

-In the end, who can stand?

-Layers after layers, lost or conformed?

-Open your eyes, reality or illusion?

-The unseen standard, fall short or strive?

-Friends and foes, pick a side or walk away?

-To be or not to be?

-Sometimes not too bad to pretend to be one of them-

12 Days Before Christmas

-The Fuzzy Tragedy-

Buzzz

As i sift through the business of the roads in Pj, i peered around, as much as my eyes allowed me to. Bombardment of billboards and colorful pretttyyy pictures landed on me all at once, filling my brains with nonsensical crap, turning over whatever cells i have left in my brain to generate information, to influence me, to make me succumb to their pressures and entice me to bow before what was before me.

Interestingly, as i took a step back, or in this case, slowed my car a lil. The lies were apparent, the truth stepped in.
Bloody crap (not literally, but figuratively)! We all are too busy!
Everything is now fast, *snap fingers*, fast, let's move it, let's go!
Fast! Breakfast should be fast (ignore the pun). Tv should be without commercials, banking without queuing, online/vegas marriage.
We're busy everyday every year.
Where did time go?
No where. 24 hours a day is enough.
Take time off, do things at your own space, with busyness comes lack of actual thinking (i mean wisdom), we often rely on things to get us somewhere fast or do things speedily, but never stop to appreciate finer things in life.
Time to slow down. Look at the stars, moon, water dripping from the tap. Whatever, just slow down.
Don't play catch up with the world.
Though i don't know how true is this but:
B e
U nder
S atan's
Y oke

I hate being busy, sleeping time all gone, GONE I TELL YOU!
Dammit.

-Fishies in a Circle-

SOS - State of Shock

Exams couldn't come sooner, wanna live life outside of books and lectures already!

2008 drawing to an end, instead of emo-ing, i say good riddance!
Time to leave it behind and not stay inside!
Time to move on!

yay!-Why can't we see when we bleed we bleed the same?-

Bask

That makes 3 pics of me being in hotel restroom taking pics of myself in the mirror. The other 2 in FB. Guess which hotel is this? Full body mirror! whoo-hoo!

Raining days are the best, cooling, makes the day's timing go wild with you guessing the time since it is mostly cloudy throughout the day.

Been actively doing 'stuff'. To a greater extent than i expected of myself, and it is good, Better than wasting time doing other stuff which was lame and benefited no one.
People flew back from overseas, met with them, they're alright.
Waiting for Nesh.
Nesh!! NESH! You are the only one left i'm waiting for, come home quick, i get to spend that FEW days with you since i not going anywhere else!
Come back! COME BACK! ok sound too desperate, he's a guy, and no, he's not gay. i.....am....not too.


Been turning down outings and mamak sessions with pals due to finals, argh! why can't our sem be in sync with public unis? makes more sense that way than some of us so oddly out of place during this time of the month when it should be holidays!
I like, one guy i used to dislike, nowa good friend of mine says, "we're making for lost time" when he hangs out with me. How much time must we lose due to petty disputes? Either solve it or cut it.
Rainy days. The drops from heaven quenches the thirst of earth. Magnificent.

- Apple Of His Eye-

Distortion

Finals this week, 3 papers in the span of 2 days, prepared? Who can ever be? Confident? Whatever God allows me to be.
Do my best.

With the mission trip officially postponed, time to buck up and have a blast during holidays =)
Cousin's wedding in Vietnam! more photo shoot outings! Local trip in other states! Singapore!!!!!
YAY!

Too much to do, too little time for petty nonsense to bother me!
Take charge.
As Steven Curtis Chapman puts it,
" I'm diving in
I'm going deep
In over my head I wanna be
Caught in the rush
Lost in the flow
In over my head I wanna go
The river's deep
The river's wide
The river's water is alive
So sink or swim
I'm diving in"

-Slippery Ground Makes You Fall-

It Starts With..

The Gingerbread Man
Runs down the road
Looking for his gumdrop buttons
To no avail did he find any
So where can he go?
Where does life takes it?
Into a glass of milk?
Into crumbs will he return to?
Where dost its meaning to be what he be be?
Run, run, run
For he is the gingerbread man.

When?

When we were back in high school, age seems to matter, in a way that we are respected by younger people.

All that changes when you step into the big boys (or girls) world, where age as a barrier has been lifted, and all you see are people who think they are different and independent striving to be someone whom the society will come to accept as a honorable contributor to its wellbeing.

When they think they are different, they really fall back into the same category or being like everyone else.
With age comes maturity
with maturity comes wisdom
with wisdom comes discernment
with discernment comes enlightenment

Yet, in now a "look out for number 1" world, respect has lost its privileges, age has become something to lie about, the fundamentals has changed.

In uni, as long as you don't make the cut into the high and lofty society, you will never be "someone", this faulty thinking brought down countless souls into depths of despair and to paths of destruction. Sad when you think about it.

Let us strive to be ourselves, wonderfully and fearfully made, to not see things as how we want to see it, for it only invites selfishness.

Growing pains lingers past youthfulness.

Lets trade it for something better.

Do not let anyone look down on you because you appear as "no one", but rather, let us take the risk and go for the "unattainable".

-Upside down, the world plays games on us-

Retro

Old Canon Powershot A80 photo! Nice camera by the way =)

Ok, won't photo spam, this is not a photo blog anyway hehehe

Finally handed in my last assignment for this semester, been a hectic busy one, every week seem to have something to do. Loads of new experience, the sick period i had earlier made things easier for me to decide, such as what to do and where to go.
So this sem i rate it good.

Some friendship improved, some neglected, some unpolished, but all in all, it was good.

Time to move on, gonna graduate soon, must make use of my last year in uni.

Come this holidays, though Thai mission trip postponed, but got plenty stuff to do and plenty of people to meet.

So why not organize some stuff and let me know? I'll be there (yes, i am shamelessly inviting myself to whatever you( who is reading this blog) are planning! i can be your photographer =)
for free?

ABC

Asian Beat Band Competition! Loon Fay from Photomalaysia.com graciously extended invitations for photographers to volunteer for the event and snap pics. Right after church, went down to Beach Club, KL. Monorail broke down, and was super late and packed!!

Basically, i went there with kit lens in my gear (haha, christmas is near, get me some good gear! hohoho!), therefore under those lightings, most of my shots underexposed, and did not do any post processing, but i picked out a couple to show you. Got some more, but uploading slow..so next time la.

This guy above damn cool, like Simymo, i like this band, unfortunately, the rest of the participants were darn noisy, typical rock kind, i dare not say they sucked at playing or singing, but too much noise can become TOO MUCH NOISE. so so noisy, can't hear the words sung, guitar was full of typical malaysian rock solos, only slicing and fast picking but not really in harmony with other band mates and not much rhythm to it. Tsk tsk, can't we adopt "less is more" when writing music? haiyo, my turn to write la!

So shot shot shot, with my kit lens, i can barely do much except to hope for the best with my settings and my trial and error shots. But got to meet new people, photographers as well from the forums, nice people.

At the end of it, we were rewarded with a group photo! yay! Beer which i did not drink, instead i took coke, and it's free! whee!
Got free Yamaha t-shirt too! so cool, and got a tag saying we photographers of the event, haha, indeed, indeed.
Through this, experience gained, knowing my limits and my gears limits, really need to save up to buy some good practical gears! Met new people, which always is a plus point for me.

In the end, the group won and representing M'sia in the international finals is some rocker group whose music i could not appreciate, Sorry man, i like cleaner stuff, noisiness also has its limits mann...
Msian music scene got hope, but not as much when bands who only play certain kind of music are promoted, i heard some underground stuff and they are pretty good, must go learn from them as well. Let's write stuff, anyone interested?